White Silence: The widows left behind tell their story about the aftermath of the Erebus disaster

Thursday, 7 November 2019

Margarita Mahon, the wife of Justice Peter Mahon who ruled over the Erebus disaster, talks about the aftermath and how it overshadowed their lives.

This story is part of White Silence, a six-part podcast series from Stuff and RNZ to mark the 40th anniversary of the Erebus disaster. You can listen to White Silence on Stuff, or via Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Stitcher, or any other app using the RSS feed. The episodes will be released daily from Friday, November 8.

In a strange way, losing her husband wasn't the worst part of the Erebus disaster for Maria Collins.

Of course, it was the worst part. Jim and Maria Collins had been together for nearly 20 years when Jim was killed on November 28, 1979.

They had four daughters and a life together. And one day Jim was suddenly gone. The strange part was that the trauma of losing a husband and father got even worse in the months afterwards.

Like the families of the 256 other victims, the family grieved, but they had to worry about something else as well.

Maria Collins, widow of Captain Jim Collins, during the Erebus Commission of Inquiry November, 1980.

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On the day of the crash, Maria Collins was at home in the Auckland suburb of St Heliers.

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Jim Collins was the captain of Air New Zealand flight TE901 when it crashed into the slopes of Mount Erebus in Antarctica, killing all 257 people on board. He was the man in charge during the deadliest disaster in New Zealand's history.

'When I first heard I thought 'And what will the world think of us?',' Maria Collins said.

'If you hear bad news and you know Jim's in charge I thought, 'What could he have been doing? How could he have made a mistake?''

The day of the crash, Maria Collins was at home in the Auckland suburb of St Heliers. She got a call from Air New Zealand about 8pm to say it had lost contact with TE901 and that if she was home alone, it might be a good idea to get someone to be with her. Soon, her living room started filling up with people.

'I thought this isn't real. But I can't fall apart with the children here and alarm them any more … the older two are 15 and 14. They're smart enough to know.'

About 1am, the phone rang again. The wreckage had been found. There were no survivors.

Jim Collins was the captain of Air New Zealand flight TE901 when it crashed into the slopes of Mount Erebus.

'When you're in that situation you sort of feel as if it's a telescope out there that's all from afar and it really doesn't affect me. And I'm used to the bed being, you know, half empty. So that's not unusual. And for a long time it felt like he was just on a long flight away because I'm used to him not being there every night. And so it took a long time …You may think that that's crazy, but that's how it felt.'

In the weeks after the crash, Maria Collins got on with life. The children had school. Christmas was only a few weeks away.

Meanwhile, the crash of the plane which her husband had been piloting was under investigation. The flight data recorders (black boxes) had been recovered from the wreckage.

The scene on Mt Erebus as it was discovered by a United States navy pilot. The pilot broke news of the discovery of the DC10 wreckage with a dramatic radio message to McMurdo base.

Soon investigators would know exactly what happened in the cockpit before the crash. One day in December 1979, Maria Collins got a visit from Ron Chippindale, the chief air accident investigator.

Chippindale wanted to see an atlas Jim Collins owned that he had apparently taken to the briefing he attended before his Antarctic flight. There was a chance he'd written crucial information in it about his flight path.

'He was looking at the bookcase there … He said 'Where's that atlas?' And I said, 'Well, Jim took it with him.'

He said, 'He didn't.' I said, 'He did'. I said, 'I can get you a copy, one of my neighbours has one.' [Chippindale said] 'No, I want to see Jim's atlas that your parents gave him.'

The Chief Inspector of Air Accidents, Ron Chippendale, before departure to Antarctica.

And I said, 'Well, it's with him, so it's lost. I don't have it.' Well, he didn't believe me and he thought I was shielding Jim by not showing it to him.

'So when Chippindale left here, you just know he's going for the pilot-error theory.'

Maria Collins, the wife of captain Jim Collins, recounts the moment she was told about the Erebus disaster.

In March 1980, Maria Collins got a copy of Chippindale's draft report on the crash. The draft was sent to all parties that might have had an interest in its contents. As in, those who might bear some responsibility for the crash.

The crucial conclusion was more or less the same as when the final version of the report was made public in June: 'The probable cause of this accident was the decision of the captain to continue the flight at low level toward an area of poor surface and horizon definition when the crew was not certain of their position and the subsequent inability to detect the rising terrain which intercepted the aircraft's flight path.'

In other words, the crash was Jim Collins' fault.

Maria Collins still has the newspaper clippings from the time: Cockpit confusion … crash report points to error … Captain's decision probable cause of tragedy.

'When you see pilot error written in the headlines in the daily newspaper,' she said, 'It's pretty bad.

Five years after his infamous report, Peter Mahon was dead. His widow Margarita Mahon is adamant the Erebus case shortened his life.

'Remember, at that time papers aren't like they are now in New Zealand where you can get all your information different ways. But in those days we still did and what you read in the newspaper was what it was.'

It was Maria Collins' lowest moment. Her husband was to blame for New Zealand's worst disaster. Soon after the report was released, she went to see her lawyer, Paul Davison, who would represent Jim Collins' estate at the upcoming royal commission of inquiry into Erebus. It was the only time during the saga that she truly sobbed.

'I said, 'What happens now? Am I married to a murderer?

Justice Peter Mahon chaired the royal commission of inquiry into the crash.

'He said, 'You've got to be patient, Maria. There's more to this than meets the eye.''

Today, Maria Collins still lives in the same house in St Heliers. She is 84 years old. Within a year of the release of the report that blamed her husband for the Erebus disaster, another report was released exonerating him. Debate over what, or who, was responsible for the crash has raged ever since. Maria Collins is at peace with it all.

'There will be a few naysayers,' she said, 'But I think the majority of mr and mrs nobodies like the rest of us here all believe that Air New Zealand made the errors, and not the pilots.'

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In many ways, Margarita Mahon's husband has come to be more associated with the Erebus disaster than Captain Jim Collins. Justice Peter Mahon chaired the royal commission of inquiry into the crash in 1980-81.

He concluded it was Air New Zealand's fault, after a series of disastrous mistakes and oversights by the airline left the pilots misled and ill-informed about the flight. Air New Zealand tried to cover this up at the commission, Mahon said, and see that the pilots shouldered the blame.

He rejected the airline's case in one of New Zealand's most enduring soundbites: 'An orchestrated litany of lies.'

Peter Mahon views a DC10 flight simulator during the one man commission of inquiry into the Erebus crash.

Mahon didn't know it, but it was the beginning of the end of his legal career. An apoplectic Air New Zealand fought the findings in court and won. The entire paragraph of the report that culminated in that famous soundbite – basically all Mahon's conspiracy conclusions against the airline – was thrown out.

'From that moment it was as if the whole world went mad, really,' Margarita Mahon said.

'The phone never stopped, and the notes in the letterbox never stopped. There were flowers left on the door.'

Peter Mahon, a reserved, conservative man, was an unlikely people's champion. The public believed he had spoken out (Air New Zealand was wholly owned by the Crown in those days) and been punished for it. But in the legal and aviation fraternities, not everyone was sure that the crash was even Air New Zealand's fault, let alone covered up by a conspiracy.

It was the Court of Appeal that had struck down the most controversial parts of Mahon's report. Two justices in particular -–Owen Woodhouse and Duncan McMullin – were scathing in their criticism, inferring that Mahon was incapable of doing his job. Mahon was deeply hurt. He shocked the country, and his wife, by resigning.

'He didn't discuss it with me,' Margarita Mahon said.

'I thought [he] should have just waited a moment, just a moment. Not necessarily not resign, but just have a little talk and think about it a wee bit more. But really it was all that pressure that really was exhausting and didn't go away, you see. So that's what led to the, what do you call it, heart failure.'

Five years after his infamous report, Peter Mahon was dead, aged 62. His widow is adamant Erebus shortened his life.

'It interfered with the whole family in a way that should never have happened … It's a whole slice of life that could have been so different. So very different. For him, for me, for [their daughter] Janet. Awful for her … [It] had a very, very bad effect on [son] Tim. [Son] Sam lesser because he was away from it a bit … And I've just lived with it, I suppose.

Today, Margarita Mahon is 91. She lives in a flat in a retirement village in Auckland full of archives and mementoes from her husband. The glasses he wore at the royal commission. His 1986 diary, complete with appointments he would never keep. Condolence letters from friends and colleagues after his death. One was from Lloyd Brown, QC, one of Peter Mahon's closest friends, who represented Air New Zealand at the Erebus inquiry. The pair never spoke again afterwards.

'That was a great sadness to Peter,' Margarita said, 'He was really, really hurt.'

Her husband was never bitter about what happened, she said, until close to the end of his life, which brought some perspective. He'd done what he thought was right. He knew it would be controversial, but had no idea how much of a pariah it would make him. Margarita Mahon has a different word for it.

'Regret,' she said, 'Tremendous regret.'

'It's wrong not to forgive people, but I could never, ever forgive Woodhouse and McMullin. They caused this to happen in our lives. Without realising the depth and extension of their actions.'

Peter Mahon grew up in Christchurch during the Depression. His father managed a general store just out of the city. Every so often, the company would send someone to check up. One day, one of these people showed his father a shady bookkeeping trick that could make things easier.

'And he said, 'No,' ' Margarita Mahon said, ''I won't do it.' And he lost his job.'

Not long before Peter Mahon died, his sisters came to visit him in Auckland. As they were leaving, one sister turned to Margarita and recalled the general store story.

'[She] said, 'It seems like history repeating itself.' Wasn't it funny that both of them stood up in what they believed? His father stood by what he thought was right and Peter stood with speaking, what did they call it? Truth to power. Truth to power.'

You can listen to White Silence on Stuff, or via Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Stitcher, or any other app using the RSS feed. The episodes will be released daily from Friday, November 8.